Here is a post I did back when I finished my film ‘Distortion’. It shows how deep the meaning of these films runs with me. It wasn’t just a movie but something that inspired, and indeed changed, a young boy forever.
February 10, 2010
It took a lot longer than I expected but the day has come. The DVD of ‘Distortion’ has been mailed out to the Cannes Film Festival and to the LA Film Festival. Not really sure of my chances but it marks the end of one thing and the start of another. Unlike the Sundance submission the film is basically done. A few things I still need to tweak but the film these festivals are receiving is the film I made. The version I sent to Sundance was still rough and had some missing things. This version is what it is. While I am still working on a few audio issues and reworking a few effects shots the film is completed and will now be judged on its own merits.
I hadn’t eaten in over 24 hours. I barely slept. I made a DVD yesterday and watched the film last night but there were some things that stuck out too much. So I went back in and fixed them and had to export the entire film and then recompress it for DVD. All total it’s around 7 hours or so just for that. I slept for just a little bit and then got up and checked it out. Burned another disc and went through it. There is one audio issue but I can live with one. For now. I got all of my information together and finally headed out to Fed Ex. Shipping was super expensive. Overnight shipping with one item going to the UK? Ouch!
As I was getting ready I reached for a shirt and next to the one I was reaching for I saw my Star Wars shirt. I put down the shirt I grabbed and put that one on. I wasn’t trying to be my geek self today. This was something personal. A circle has closed. When I was 4 years old I saw Star Wars in the theatre. It changed my life forever. The images were so powerful that I was forever in love with the movies. If that one moment where a young boy’s eyes were mesmerized and imagination soared had not happened then there is no telling who I would be today. Ever since I was a kid I have dreamed of making movies. Even before I knew what a director was I would imagine my own films. The day finally came where the little kid grew up and made his first film. I don’t know what my future holds. All I know is that in many ways I am still that young boy filled with dreams and wonder.
If I ever had to pick one moment in any film that expresses who I am it is from Star Wars when Luke looks out onto the horizon at the two setting suns. He looks out and dreams of things far away but feels like he can’t reach them but hopes that one day he can. Nothing has ever been more true for me. I still look out onto the horizon. Hoping. Dreaming. Maybe one day I will reach them too.